Determination & Vow....

Thinking bout past but not the future... Tried to walk back wards hoping thing will juz go reverse back to what they are before..., refusing to walk on..refusing to accept things has change... Refusing to accept who u are... Is pathetic & i know it...but still i cant change it... im lying to everyone & im lying to my self... "I tried but i cant", "I dono how", "i juz cant do it".... making all these excuses for my self...Pathetic...pathetic, pathetic, really pathetic... It juz either wan or don wan... Right now I had choose to wan...& i will do it... with all i have.... or i will juz die...