Thinking, Dreaming, wondering..

Sometimes thinking back about past relationship its not a total bad things to do...
It may have an sad and heart breaking ending...but in someway the process are more important...
Before any bad things happen...alot...alots happy moment pass by,The sweetest and happiest moment.
Sometimes i will close my eye...relax my mind and start think back about what had happen in my last relationship.
Search in my heart how do i feel that moment. check back my 5 sense how do i react. what did i do, how happy was i.
Her Smiles make me Smiles, Her pain make me tears, Her tear`s.....shattered my heart... But.....
I cant make her draw her smile... I cant be there when she in pain...and I...make her shed her tears...over something idiotic....I'm just an idiot...
Why cant i protect her? Why i cant make she smile? Why i cant be good enough for her? Why...do we have to part....?
I love her.....