Confession Of Baka...

I love You, A words From Your Lips That Melt My Heart..

You, Was The One I Will Marry... This Was My Thought..

At 1st I Thought This Was Just Another Sweet Dream..

Later Then I Thought "Ahhh...This Must Be Dream Come True..

A Morning Kiss For You, When I Saw U The Moment I Open My Eyes..

A Hug From You When I Was Preparing Breakfast For Us..

No Matter It Was...

Yesterday...Today...Or Tomorrow...

I Still Want To Say I Love You...& I Always Will Love You..

Even If All This Was Just A Dream...

Baka.

Determination & Vow....

Thinking bout past but not the future... Tried to walk back wards hoping thing will juz go reverse back to what they are before..., refusing to walk on..refusing to accept things has change... Refusing to accept who u are... Is pathetic & i know it...but still i cant change it... im lying to everyone & im lying to my self... "I tried but i cant", "I dono how", "i juz cant do it".... making all these excuses for my self...Pathetic...pathetic, pathetic, really pathetic... It juz either wan or don wan... Right now I had choose to wan...& i will do it... with all i have.... or i will juz die...

Tired...

Life. is 1 words that bear numerous, uncountable meaning....
Life. is also the one carries the most meaning of "tired".... even more then the original words...

Living everyday has to put on a mask to face the world & let the world saw u in it...never without it.. as it is dangerous...

so dangerous till u might lost ur life, ur dears any moment....

As far as it goes...Tiredness never cease...always within, always around....

in another hand...happiness tend to cease faster then any other emotion...

is this why we all longed for it? Sigh...

Throw one self into forest of thorn just to take 1 sip of happiness nectar...

Throw one self away as sacrifices to build a happy family everyday...

sigh.... tired...

A Piece of Precious ...

7 july 2009...
This Date...
is....so...
FREAKING FUN!!! =PP
on that day my lao pa & my lao pa where coming kl! so i take this chances to hang out with them~(die die also wan that type=PP)
which is a fabulous decision we had so much F.U.N~
At 1st im talking a 5 min walk to their hotel from Sungai wang (thanks to my lao ma take so long to get ready~ but nvr make up =.=" wonder what she do with those time) anyway juz as i reach tot wanna be naugthy awhile~ so i pretend as (the usual boring role for playing when u are at hotel~ ) a hotel boi~ while knock and say the ( old usual lame) Room Service~
Which end up she (lao pa) is the 1 play mi back (T_T lost to lou wu lei~ ~ xD she will kill mi for this post thats for sure! xP)
well i manage to get in their room sit awhile ( enjoy the cold air cond~) den take some picture while at it (kinda lame but...Is a revenge for not taking any picture on last meeting!!!!!) so end up i toke round 3-5 picture inside her room =.="
well after that mi~ lao pa~ lao ma~ Went to eat BreakFast~ or Lunch...hmmm actually is Brunch LOLZ We went to Kim Gary for that and i order fish fillet baked cheese rice~ ( which is edy make mi feel quite full) and lao ma cant finish her seafood baked cheese rice she gave mi half of it... and i actually finish that too ( so dang full man!!!) the thing lao pa order not nice one pork chop with garlic sauce =.=" the garlic sauce is too "kaw" with the garlic flavour @.@
After our Brunch we aimlessly walk around sungai wang~ walk walk~ walk walk~ walk walk~
Den!! lao ma called Lisa~ they chat awhile den lao ma pass the phone to mi...(SI lisa called mi MAG!!!!) =.=" then say...dono who u are.. =.=" K*S =PP
then lisa said she will coming to join us along with casey~ ( lis bro) then lao pa go call mag as well but mag was bz that day so counldnt join us~ wasted~ While Waiting for them to come we think of wanna go Sing K~ so search for Red Box~ which does not match our prefference so we choose GReeeeeeeeN Box instead xP
5Ppl With a BIG room that can fit in 10 ++ ppl (so lucky man~)
Then Begin the Singing Legacy~ (don really rmb what song we actually sing) i juz rmb we dance inside the room while axe and lisa singing " i wanna be a pop star" a jap song its was so funny~ xP and then i sing jia gei wo~(one of the rare chinese song that i can remember their lyric) and when singing the last part (jia gei wo) i was down on my knees and hand direct to lao ma~ (im so notty xD) lao ma keep say "im not xi fu im not xi fu" lolz after few mroe song we stop awhile for eating. casey choose alot MJ song to listen to while we eat lolz
After Eat back to our Legacy~ casey choose a song..."i don wanna miss a thing" sing till no voice left!!! and then i choose a malay song~ man bai- kau ilhamku~ to my suprise lis noe how to sing it ~ so she sing it with mi lolz nice nice nice~
after finish sing K we went to take some picture outside of greenbox juz manage to toke few or pair picture then lao ma say wan take group ~ lis and casey suggest we go to some place
for the photography session~ so there we go~
Casey lead us to groud floor escalator which the side of it is so clear that is actually like a mirror~ so at there we toke some funny freaky picture xD we centre of attention ppl look at us and show the (wtf) stare xD btw not like we care ~ have fun can le~ after the tiring photo graphy session we stand there chat awhile play awhile den off we go~ lis & casey both went back to cheras so i stay awhile more with lao pa and lao ma~ i pei them back to their hotel and stay awhile be i go to Kl Central~ its was tiring, but its was fun Is Memoriable ^^
Thats all~ ciaos~

Sen no Yoru wo Koete Romanji lyric =] sing along~

aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
sono kurikaeshi no naka o samayotte
boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizu tsuitatte
suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaerun da

anata ga boku o aishiteru ka aishitenai ka
nante koto wa mou docchi demo iin da
donna ni negai nozomou ga
kono sekai ni wa kaerarenu mono ga takusan aru darou
sou soshite boku ga anata o aishiteru to iu jijitsu dake wa
dare ni mo kaerarenu shinjitsu dakara

sen no yoru o koete anata ni tsutaetai
tsutaenakya naranai koto ga aru
aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
sono kurikaeshi no naka o samayotte
boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizu tsuitatte
suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaerun da
kimochi o kotoba ni suru no wa kowai yo
demo suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaerun da

kono hiroi sekai de meguriau yorokobi o kotoba ja iiarawasenai ne
dakara bokutachi wa hohoemi
iro azayaka ni sugiru aki o do re mi de utatte
fuyu o se ni haru no komorebi o machi
atarashiku umarekawaru dareka o mamoreru you ni to

kita michi to yukisaki furikaereba itsudemo
okubyou na me o shite ita boku
mukiaitai demo sunao ni narenai
massugu ni aite o aisenai hibi o
kurikaeshite wa hitoribocchi o iyagatta
ano hi no boku wa mukizu no mama de hito o aisou to shiteita

sen no yoru o koete ima anata ni ai ni ikou
tsutaenakya naranai koto ga aru
aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
sono kurikaeshi no naka o samayotte
boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizu tsuitatte
suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaerun da
sono omoi ga kanawanakutatte suki na hito ni suki tte tsutaeru
sore wa kono sekai de ichiban suteki na koto sa

DediCating this song To u...=]

I want to be loved, But you don't seem to love me
I wonder about, Within that repetition
I found a single answer, Even scared, And even hurt
I can tell the person that I love "I Love You"

Do u love me? Do u not love me?
It doesn't matter to me either way
No matter how much i wish for it
There are a lot of things in this world that can't be changed

That's right , And only the fact that i love you
Is a truth that's unchangeable by anyone

Passing through 1000 night's , I want to tell you
There's something that i have to tell u

I want to be loved, But you don't seem to love me
I wonder about, Within that repetition
I found a single answer, Even scared, And even hurt
I can tell the person that I love "I Love You"

Putting my feelings into words is scary, But
I can tell the person that I love "I Love You"
I can't express in words, The joy of meeting you in this big world
So we smile, singing bout the autumn

That passes by in vivid colors, With a "Do-Re-Mi"
We turn our back on the winter
Waiting for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And are reborn anew, so that we can protect someone

When i looked back on the path that i came down, and my destination
I would always do it with timid eyes
I want to face u, but I can't be honest
I Don't want to know that you don't love me

And live the rest of my day all alone
That day i keep on loving you without getting hurt

Passing through 1000 night's, I want to tell you
There's something that i have to tell u

I want to be loved, But you don't seem to love me
I wonder about, Within that repetition
I found a single answer, Even scared, And even hurt
I can tell the person that I love "I Love You"

Even if those feeling don't true, I can tell the person that I love "I Love You"
And that's the most wonderful things in the world

I Love You =]

Finally changed the doll...

Today finally i changed the doll i bought last week...i nvr post anything bout it rite? hehe... okays back to last sat thats is 6 of June~ asiasoft was holding an anniversary event at 1U...so my fren was asking who wanna go.. Finding its was rather interesting event so i raise my hand!!! and say i wanna go~ that day i woke at 6am =.="
that day anniversary was rather A LOT people and i manage to meet alot fellow mapler~
got a goodies bad and exchanged a pillow @.@ i gave to my mum xD
after event we to a doll shop located at sungai buloh...
i make a promise to a person that i will give her a soft doll as present~
so after half hour of choosing finally managed to bought a blue teddy~
but when i mms to the person...she told mi something that make mi pengsan@.@
"i think i already has this doll back in home"@.@
so end up today we went back to the shop to choose another 1 (Lucky the lao pan is nice he give mi change....) the new 1 is cream colour add some $$ and its mine!!
so i bought it~ xD


P.S its actually between each event here is alot funny thing happen =]
but i was too lazy to tell all in detail hahahas...

Its all Past now...

Its been soooooooooooooooooo long since i last post anything~
Due to my Blog was kinda "private only" back then so never really post anything yet hahas
Now officially open my Blog to public~ Welcome To all that visit my blog =]

my very 1st link was my lao pa ~ ( ofcuz not real 1)=P 2nd is Veron the cutie pie~
3rd is still vacant so far xP and i doubt will be fill in anytime soon so juz leave it there~


Let have some simple introduction bout my blog~
it was juz a simple blog which i use to release what i think (when its was in private mode)
Since now its public so its NOW~for anyone who wanna release what their heart feel can come here =]

well anyway i find this post was rather very lame ahahahahahhahas
thats it nothing more for mi to say
once again thanks u got visiting my blog and have a nice time ^^

Jacky

Thinking, Dreaming, wondering..

Sometimes thinking back about past relationship its not a total bad things to do...
It may have an sad and heart breaking ending...but in someway the process are more important...
Before any bad things happen...alot...alots happy moment pass by,The sweetest and happiest moment.
Sometimes i will close my eye...relax my mind and start think back about what had happen in my last relationship.
Search in my heart how do i feel that moment. check back my 5 sense how do i react. what did i do, how happy was i.
Her Smiles make me Smiles, Her pain make me tears, Her tear`s.....shattered my heart... But.....
I cant make her draw her smile... I cant be there when she in pain...and I...make her shed her tears...over something idiotic....I'm just an idiot...
Why cant i protect her? Why i cant make she smile? Why i cant be good enough for her? Why...do we have to part....?
I love her.....

Truth...or...False?

Hug the one u miss....
Kiss the one u love.....
say I love u to the one u wanna be with forever....

Be there for the one that missed u.....
Protect the one that loved u....
Give ur all to the one that wanna be with u forever...

Love is around us night and day...
Yet why cant we understand what is it....
As simple as we talk as simple as we breath...
But how many can understand it before their death?...